26/02/2025
I’m Shookt!
It’s February 23, Sunday, 11:03 PM, and I have been on my laptop working while also intermittently switching to my mobile phone. It’s been days now since I initially thought of creating this page. And to be honest, I have no clue where to start. I have created this page as my very own journal, just my notepad where I can scribble and write down (or type in) my thoughts. The catch? In about 2 years—I’m turning forty (40) and I am SHOOKT!
In the past years, I wanted to believe that I had been living my life in the best way I could, and for a very long time, I really think I was. On top of the pandemic trauma, causing me and most of the people I know to realize the true meaning of how short life is, last year, 2024, I lost 5 folks that I had the chance to closely work with. 4 of them were in their 40s. All were related to health. All leaving their families devastated.
Last year, I had been feeling this sense of fear, this sense of worry, the realization of mortality. And as I continue to age day by day, I can’t stop but telling myself that I am also getting older now. If anything, I don’t think I fear death, but I think I fear not living the best life that I can live. Not being with the people I love. Not seeing my kids grow. Not being there for my wife.
My thoughts right now as I’m typing this down are just rambling and probably just all over the place. But pretty much as I think I am right now, I am shookt. And it’s probably going to the next level in the next few weeks or months.
As I have officially started this today, I hope to openly share my thoughts with you moving forward. Then at the same time, learn from you. Grow with you as I take my journey heading to my 40th. As you know, time flies so FAST (Forty And ShookT).
(This just makes sense as the 1st photo of my journal.
Date: April 10, 2019. First donestic flight as married couples. Can't remember if this was in Cebu or Bohol airport)
