Inner Muse

06/24/2018

The blog on my website is up and running. I had a conversation at dinner Friday night on Anthony Bourdain's su***de that has sparked a new blog entry.

06/17/2018

It's been a busy weekend. I've been working on my website. Once I revamp the blog feature it will be done. I've also reactivated my Etsy storefront. I teach people how to quiet the noise that drowns out our inner wisdom. One of my ways to quiet my own noise is with my crafting. Since I don't have a space to keep all of my crafted items, I pass them on to others through my storefront. Each piece is created while drawing from my well of peacefulness and filled with my intention to share my serenity with others.

06/09/2018

06/08/2018

A couple of friends from the Wisdom of the House of Night deck have let me know they have something to share with everyone. Kalona speaks to us about choices - those made and those not made. All of which have consequences. Which choice will you make or not make? Stevie Rae speaks of loyalty. She asks us to stand up for what we believe and be loyal only to what is true and good.

06/08/2018

Life takes us on interesting journeys. Many of the trips don't come out the way I expect. I've started a new business by moving my accounting, bookkeeping and tax preparation services into a separate company. Good news is all the time I've been spending building that company off is starting to pay off. I've got time again to refocus on my spiritual companionship programs and art. I'm not enamored with social media but I'm committed to improving my presence on this platform.

02/28/2017

I may get into the habit of writing here. I'm not there yet. Today I feel the strong need to write. The mother of a friend of mine has come to the last few days of her life. As I support my friend, I am reminded by my own experience of my mother's passing. I spent a lot of time with my mother during the couple of months of her life. I did it out of a sense of obligation since good girls should take care of their parents while they are dying. I also went with an expectation that the relationship I always wanted with my mother would be realized during her last few weeks.

Needless to say, it wasn't. Sitting with her in her pain and denial of what was happening intensified my pain of seeing an illusion I hoped would someday become a reality shatter in front of me as my mother became angrier, more resentful, and shifted further away from me. I was also caught up in what others thought about what I should be doing and following that path rather than listening to what I needed to be doing to accept the changes that were occurring in that moment. Looking back I am grateful to a care provider who told me that I didn't need to worry about taking care of my mother's needs since hospice was supporting my mother. I was given permission to let go of my mother's pain which gave me the room to be with only my own. While I was capable of being with my own, I was being crushed when attempting to take on my mother's in addition to my own.

Where is this all leading? I'm not sure I even know. When my friend asked me whether she should go to see her mother before she dies or whether she should wait until after to support her father, I replied you must do what is needed for you to forgive, let go and heal. Going out of guilt and obligation will serve no one.

11/29/2016

The persistent thought for me today is about living in in authenticity and expressing truth. Caroline Myss has been one of my teachers for many years. I've read many of her books, attended a few of her workshops, and watched and listened to teachings. I saw her just recently at Celebrate your Life in Scottsdale, Arizona. She is a wordsmith and is very careful in her selection of the spoken word.

In speaking truth it is wise to remember the power a word can have. For the most part, truth is relative. What is a truth for me may not be a truth for anyone else. When I speak my truth, I own it and identify it as my truth. How many times have you heard hurtful words spoken under the guise of I am speaking my truth. Many years ago I took my mother out to dinner. Taking my mother out to dinner was more a duty I believed I had by the simple act of being her daughter and not because I really wanted to spend time with my mother. After listening the the tirade on how her neighbors in the apartment complex needed to change their ways or move because what they were doing in their home disturbed her, I spoke out and suggested that rather than insisting that her neighbors be forced to move that maybe she should move.

What I offered was I viable option. It was not what my mother wanted to hear. The animosity she was expressing about her neighbors was justified in her mind by the statement she was expressing her truth. While truth can hurt, is what is being said in the name of truth actually the truth or a way to manipulate a situation to your own benefit? I've spoken unpleasant and painful truths to others. My practice when I am asked to speak a truth as I perceive it when I know that what I will say will be unpleasant or painful is to ask the person asking is "Are you sure you want to hear me?" If they say yes, I internally ask for the grace to express what must be said in the manner that will serve the best interests of all. It doesn't release me from my portion of the responsibility of the consequences. It does help to define my degree of responsibility.

Remember the power of your words and the consequences they may have.
Blessings of love and strength.
Suellen

11/24/2016

As people who have followed me or who know me in person have found out, Facebook is not high on my list of ways to reach out and communicate. While I will more than likely always prefer the closeness I experience with one-on-one conversations, I am being encouraged internally to reach out to more people. So I am going to expand my comfort zone by becoming more active on this page.

I am finding as I get older or maybe it is just as I am getting more comfortable and sure with who I am that what other people think about me isn't as important as it used to be. Especially when the opinion is a tool for holding on tightly to the status quo. I am changing. The community I live in is changing. The United States is changing. The world is changing. The problems we are facing as the human race have no national boundaries. I keep coming face-to-face with the question - "Am I part of the problem or am I a part of the solution?" In my belief system burying my head in the sand, resorting to violence and abusive behavior, or allowing my fear to freeze me in indecision is being part of the problem.

Many years ago as my world was completely turned upside down by a dark night called divorce, I found Hay House radio and Louise Hay. No offense to Louise but I found affirmations to be a way of lying to myself. Since I made a vow to never lie to myself again, I couldn't get them to work until I crafted this one for myself - "I am becoming the persion I want to spend the rest of my life with." One of the most powerful songs I heard that supported this affirmation is Michael Jackson's Man in the Mirror. "I'm asking the man in the mirror to change his ways." If you want change in this world, you must become the change you want to see in this world. It's not always the easiest path to walk but I have found it to be the most worthwhile.

Be the change.
Blessings of love and strength.
Suellen

02/21/2015

For the weekend we have Crossing in the House of Rider. It's interesting to me that today we are working with the beginning and end cards of the Lenormand set. The Rider brings messages and news. The Crossing brings us to the other end dealing with tests, sadness, suffering, and crisis. This weekend will not be filled with happy news.

Gilded Reverie Lenormand by Ciro Marchetti; The Enchanted Lenormand Oracle by Caitlin Matthews & Virginia Lee

02/20/2015

Today House is in the House of Child. Today Child brings in spontaneity, playfulness and even a touch of naivety. House brings it into your home and your personal domestic space. Today is not a day for housework and grown up respnsibilities around the home. Take the time and play. If you have kids, join in their play.

Gilded Reverie Lenormand by Ciro Marchetti; The Enchanted Lenormand Oracle by Caitlin Matthews & Virginia Lee

02/19/2015

Thank you for your understanding over my absence for the last couple of days. I am back today with a reading. Key is in the House of Rider. Rider provides the overall setting for the day which will be filled with messages and news. If you've been looking for solutions or breakthroughs, The key indicates today is the day to have those answers come to you.

Gilded Reverie Lenormand by Ciro Marchetti; The Enchanted Lenormand Oracle by Caitlin Matthews & Virginia Lee

02/17/2015

I'm not posting a reading today. One of my dear companions of 18 years passed away last night. The grief is too fresh for me to not have it overshadow any reading I do today. Thank you for your understanding.