08/13/2026
Yesterday, I witnessed something truly magical and awe-inspring: the Total Eclipse of the Sun while in Valencia, Spain 🇪🇸.
Despite my love and faith in all things celestial, this was my first total Solar Eclipse. As trite as it may sound, it was and still is, life-changing. The experience itself was amazing (IYKYK) but for me, it represented so much more than just seeing the Eclipse. It signified the closing of a dark period of my life that has been fraught with fear, stress and the seeking of external validation. Make no mistake, I tell this story not to reinforce that validation. At this point, I truly don't care if people "like" what I'm about to say. I don't mean that disrespectfully; I just recognize once again that those things don't actually really matter. I instead tell this story because if telling it helps even one person transmute a similar experience, it is a gift.
Back in April of 2024, I had an opportunity to experience the Total Solar Eclipse that passed over parts of the United States. I had originally planned to go to Austin and then changed my plans to go to Little Rock instead. Both are about an 8 hour drive from New Orleans. As the Eclipse approached, I became more and more anxious. I started worrying that "something" might happen on this trip. And then I started telling myself it was ridiculous to drive so far for such a short-lived event. It became easy for me to convince myself not to go. I told myself my sense of relief upon deciding not to go confirmed my decision. However, I regretted not going immediately. I experienced something foreign to me up until that point, FOMO. I say foreign because my MO in life is just to do the thing despite the fear or hesitation. I was the one who got divorced, quit my job, sold all my stuff & traveled the US for 4 months. I was the one who moved to St Thomas a week after getting a job offer, sight unseen. I was the one who moved to NOLA without a plan or a job or a home. These are just things that I do. But after a year (2023) that had been filled with trauma & heartache, I had dropped down into a fear vibration. In that vibration, hesitation became my comfort zone.
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