01/04/2026
Happy belated New Year's! I usually am on top of reflections from the past year, lessons learned, being greatful for another year. This year I need time to think. To take in all that has happened, not just this year, but the past several. The last few months have been busy. There hasn't been much time to slow down and breathe. We have finally come to the end of a crazy butchering season and are able to slow down.
The last several years have been hard. Losing Tristan was hard, helping the kids get through that fist year was hard. Not knowing what our future held was hard. Having plans constantly change and having to figure out what was next for our family was hard. I lived with one foot out the door, not knowing if we were going to have to leave the place that has become home. I let myself drift away from friendships, hoping it would make the transition easier, not realizing I was isolating from people who mean a lot to me. I was also pulling my kids away from their friends without realizing it. Living constantly in the unknown scared me and I wasn't sure how to start over in a new place, or even continue in the life we had here.
Once we got the lease on our shop building, everything changed. We had a solid direction to go, our company was expanding and life didn't feel stagnant. My energy returned and I started trying to get the kids together with their friends and tried to stop isolating. Then came the craziness that comes with starting up something and there wasn't time for anything. The break in happened and as much as I tried to be upbeat and not let it get to me, but the frustration was discouraging and it was hard some days to keep going with the same enthusiasm that we started off with. Spending so much time away from home was hard (I applaud families with 2 working parents) and I often struggled with feeling like I wasn't a good mom. What I didn't realize at the time, was the kids have grown up so much and understood what we were doing. Sure they missed us, but they willingly took on more responsibility at home.
Which brings us to now. The fall rush is over and rest is on the horizon. Plans that have been in the works for years are starting to come together and what started as a small side project is turning into something more than I had imagined. Turns out people go out of their way to pop in the store and we are starting to fill in gaps that we didn't know were there until now. I have been humbled by people's generosity and can't wait to see what this year holds for us.