19/09/2021
I did it!
Today I got my first Moderna shot.
This wouldn't be any big news if... it weren't for my NEEDLE PHOBIA 💀💀💀
A recent Oxford University survey of more than 15,000 adults in the UK suggests needle phobia accounts for about 10% of Covid vaccine hesitancy (BBC News)
And I totally understand it.
I'm one in ten people, statistically, that froze the moment they realized that our worst fear, a needle, will be our only way out of the grip of COVID-19.
If you think about it, it's actually quite the cruel joke 😅💀😵😭
Why am I sharing this very personal story with you?
Because
A) I really want to reach those that are just as frightened of needles as I am, caught in the "Covid vs phobia" dilemma and
B) simply to raise awareness that people like me exist
As for the shot, I made an insta story about my day today, feel free to check it out.
Briefly summed up:
I woke up and had my first panic attack in bed this morning, learned a breathing technique called "box breathing" on YouTube (breathe in, hold, breathe out, hold, repeat ♻️) to keep my anxiety at bay even if just a little (it worked a bit!) and when it was time to enter the vaxx booth I broke out in a cascading waterfall, incomprehensibly sobbing words of "yes, I'm ok to get my shot" (even though I didn't look like it lol) and then DID NOT even FEEL the shot ONE BIT.
*Almost* to my disappointment 😂
Honestly though, doc served the shot so well, she was done while I was still mentally preparing 🙈
So If you, too, are hellishly scared of needles, I feel you. I completely understand. It really is your decision to get the shot(s) or not. I can 100% understand just HOW MUCH of a daunting prospect it is to get through this, not only once but in most cases twice.
I'll sadly have to go back for a second shot & I will report again (😭) Probably lots of tears & anxiety again but at least now I know I will be surprised at how fast it goes and how little I will feel!
🥲 Our medical staff are real heroes 🙏🏻💗 (pay them more!!)
Thanks for reading! 🥺💕