06/16/2026
People keep asking how we are. And honestly, we are sad and fearful and tired of watching someone we love have such a rough go. I do however, in the midst of it all, keep going back to the thought that Jesus sees us, just as He saw Nathaniel under the fig tree. Nathanial believed in Jesus after their encounter, because there was no doubt in his mind after speaking with Jesus that He saw his heart and his deepest needs.
I have always believed that God has a hand and is working all things for good, but he’s brought a new light to this verse in recent years. These “things” aren’t the “things” we see with our eyes, rather what is happening in spiritual realm and the hearts of believers. Cancer isn’t good, inequality isn’t good, addiction and heartache and loneliness are no good-and they never will be-but the Holy Spirit is still our comforter and through it all, he’s working it for good in our spirit and the spirit of others.
I don’t think that my brother got cancer at this time because it’s “when I needed it to happen”, but I do know, without a doubt, that the Holy Spirit is allowing me to see His presence in the midst. Sending little whispers of “I saw you under the fig tree” just like he did for Nathanial so many years ago.
He has lined things up so that my precious in laws could be nearby to help with the kids any time of day. Because it is summer time, I have no work, and he has allowed me to be at every appointment and hospitalization thus far. He has given me a minute alone or a phone call from my daddy with prayer just when I felt like I was done being positive and present. And I continue to feel His peace in every decision we have made and in every doctor He has sent our way.
And I truly lament for those who can’t see him in times like this and don’t have the village we have. That’s the part that feels unfair honestly. I pray they feel his presence and see his hand in other ways. I pray that everyone around me can feel seen and loved even in the midst of crappy circumstances the same way I have. I don’t know how it all will end, but I pray that no matter what, I’ll look back and I’ll say-God saw us, He held us, and He loved us well ♥️
“When Nathanael came toward him, Jesus Christ said of him, ‘Here truly is an Israelite in whom there is no deceit.’
‘How do you know me?’ Nathanael asked.
Jesus answered, ‘I saw you while you were still under the fig tree before Philip called you.’”�— John 1:47–48 (NIV)